CONYER CLAYTON
unclean echoing
We take some mushrooms at a cabin in Quebec. We find an eagle feather in a field, strips of birch-bark
planted in our path. I bleed heavy. My cup is full of dark, thick blood. You hold it while I dip the eagle
quill in. I draw a tree
with my uterine-lining
on the flattened parchment
re-create / re-route / re-root past fullness. Skin now weighted down. Not sticky but slick. Use what's
been shed — exit
myself without pain
how to harvest, thin tin
bucket of my body.
Instead —
I sketch roots, letters of our names, initials clot, chunk, this could have fed a child but here — spread it
thinner draw a leaf breathe it dry wonder if I could sell this
Limited Edition 1/1
Birch-bark
Mid-menses ink in psychedelic typeset
I love flushing crucial things I create down the toilet. I love when it takes two tries. Copper induced
weightiness, breast overflow, body overflow, sap push past bark. Yeah, yeah, a woman is a tree, I keep
coming back to this, a woman wrapped in red paper leaves, a woman
swollen / grotesque / beautiful
I wonder about privacy but
it feels good to let myself bleed in public. Hold my once-shame up to a dim bulb. To watch you hold it,
calm. Transparent. Witness colour change. To craft cramps into crudely drawn glyphs, roll pain into a
scroll and keep it in a bowl on our bookshelf. We have company and no one knows. I wonder if it is
sanitary, and if this wondering
isn't just millennia of men
saying
I'm unclean
echoing through me
Conyer Clayton is an Ottawa-based writer, musician, editor, and gymnastics coach. Her debut full-length collection of poetry is We Shed Our Skin Like Dynamite (2020, Guernica Editions). She has released 2 albums and 7 chapbooks, most recently, Sprawl | the time it took us to forget (Collusion Books, 2020), written collaboratively with Manahil Bandukwala. She won The Capilano Review's 2019 Robin Blaser Poetry Prize, ARC Poetry Magazine’s 2017 Diana Brebner Prize, and is a member of the creative collective VII, whose debut chapbook is forthcoming with Collusion Books in Spring 2021.
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